My Anthem

This song really resonates with me.

Song Title: One More
Artist: Superchick

It feels like I have lost this fight
They think that I am staying down
But I'm not giving up tonight
Tonight the wall is coming down
I am stronger than my fears
This is the mountain that I climb
Got 100 steps to go
Tonight I'll make it 99

One more, go one more, yeah yeah,
Dont's stop now, go one more, yeah yeah,
One more, go one more, go one more, yeah yeah,

I have everything to lose
By not getting up to fight
I might get used to giving up
So I am showing up tonight
I am my own enemy
The battle fought within my mind
If I can overcome step one
I can face the 99

One more, go one more, yeah yeah,
Dont's stop now, go one more, yeah yeah,
One more, go one more, go one more, yeah yeah

I won't wear stiletto shoes outside because I'm afraid I'll strike oil....

Have you ever seen the sitcom, According to Jim with Jim Belushi? I have a great storyline for the show. Imagine that the family is going on vacation. They are spending a week in Cancun, and Jim’s sister-in-law, played by Kimberly Williams-Paisley teases Jim about being so white that people will be blinded once he takes his shirt off at the beach. Predictably, Jim goes to a tanning salon to build a bit of a tan before his pastiness effects the vision of hundreds of beach going innocents. While he’s in the tanning bed, the camera is focused solely on his face. He’s lying in the tanning bed struggling with his goggles waiting for the lights to come on... when you hear the sound of breaking glass and his eyes widen. Yep, the plexiglas has cracked under the weight of Jim’s ass. The show goes on with Jim howling in pain and being wheeled into the emergency room where a beautiful Asian nurse giggles uncontrollably while using tweezers to remove tiny pieces of glass from Jim’s butt. Jim spends his vacation lying on his stomach and unable to sit due to the stitches in his ass.

This is a true story, only the role of Jim was played by me, the vacation was to Cozumel, and I didn’t actually have to have glass picked out of my ass by a nurse. I cried. The poor girl that worked at the tanning salon didn’t know what to do, and obviously felt sorry for me. She said to her knowledge that had never happened before, and wanted me to use one of the stand-up booths. When I came out she had been on the phone with the store owner who explained that the Plexiglas becomes brittle after months and months of being heated and cooled, and occasionally this happens. I’m sure they’re right, but I still felt … Wretched. They did upgrade my package to the standing booth for free, as I refused to use the bed again.

There are many reasons to want to lose weight. My health and appearance are among them, but one that’s equally important is my general happiness. I feel bad about myself, due to my size, and I often have stories of things that happen to me that would make anyone else feel bad too. In order to deal, I try to make them funny. They may be funny only to people who know me well, or people who can sympathize, but I may post a few on here, such as this one. It’s ok to laugh. I cried at the time, but I laugh now :)

So good!

My favorite breakfast this week:
1 egg
1 corn tortilla with 1 slice of reduced fat colby jack cheese melted on top
1 spoonful of chunky salsa

About 200 calories

On the Bandwagon

The other day I was sitting on my couch watching The Biggest Loser online and noticed that my shoe was untied. As I leaned forward to tie it... I had to unbutton my pants in order to reach it. It occured to me that I was watching a dozen contestants on a TV show realize their dreams of weight loss, while I was sitting on my rather sizeable rump unable to reach my shoes because my front was also rather sizeable.

Although nobody was home to witness my shame, it was still rather embarrassing.

While beginning to feel very sorry for myself, a good friend e-mailed me and asked if I would be interested in trying to lose weight with her and encouraging each other via email, texts, etc. Awed by the timeliness of her suggestion, (thank you God for providing us with what we need when we need it) I agreed.

I also decided to begin blogging about my progress. There is quite a lot to lose, and while I'm losing it, I want to use this blog as a forum to encourage others to eat healthful meals, exercise, and be happy and healthy. Which means people I know might read it, if I get the guts to email it to my friends or post it on Facebook.

So that's the introduction, and this is what you can expect to come:
some self deprecating humor,
likely some rambling,
menu and recipe ideas,
and fitness information as I continue to learn about this stuff,
photos,
links to interesting related sites,
and updates on my progress.

Feel free to comment -- suggestions and encouragement are very welcome!

Always, Lindsay